Thursday, March 12, 2009

Ho boy here we go again...

So....I got smacked upside the head with the "guess what!" hammer this morning. D found a new Albuquerque, about 2 hours from here. He starts on the 30th. So of course my first OMG reaction was like ZOMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?! my stress level I think went through the roof, and then some.

After he got me to calm down (I was asking 5 billion questions I guess), he explained that this new job is going to make him 38,000 a year, as much as both of us currently make combined with him working part time at the Lab and me full time at the dental office. We're also NOT going to move right away, he's going to have training for a couple of weeks in Albuquerque and then he's going to be a system administrator and some of the stuff I guess the company he is going to work for is all over this area too, so he MAY not have to move.

I'm torn. In a way I would LOVE to move to Albequerque. I don't really care for it up here on the mountain, I would like to get away from the cold weather, and my asthma does better at lower elevations. But....

I would have to quit my job. <----That right there is scary.

Why? I had a hell of a time FINDING a job when I first moved here, granted it was probably because we lived on the mountain where there's next to no job market....but STILL! What if's started running through my head. What if I can't find a job, how will I pay my bills (I'm very independent, I hate others paying for me). What if I DO find a job and it sucks and it starts messing with my ability to finish my master's degree. What if he loses his job, what if what if what if UGH!. I hate it!

I really hope this works out, and that I can manage to squeeze in all of my dental work before we have to move (if we need to). See, right now, my dental work is free, Dr. M does it. I had one hell of a lot of cavities to fill, and a tooth that was crowned and another that's broken that either may need a crown or may just get extracted (fine with me either way honestly). I'm deathly afraid of dentists when it comes to being in the chair, so I hadn't gone to a dentist since I was 18 probably. So with all the work that's been done, if I'd have to pay for it myself you're talking thousands of dollars, and I still have probably close to 1500 to 2k left to be done. So if I can squeeze the remaining like....5 small cavities and that one big ? would be much better.

I don't know, so many scenarios going through my head. Albequerque isn't near as expensive as it is up here, so finding a place to live would be easier and cheaper and probably bigger with more ammenities than here. Could even find an affordable place with a washer and dryer in apartment! lol. That would so make my day.

Anyway, I'm going to go, it's lunch time and I'm starving. Cross your fingers for me.




  1. Hmmm??? A bigger city would probably produce more job opportunities- so it might not be as hard as you think, more people = more dentists... I was just at the dentist the other day and I was talking to my hygienist and I guess it is pretty common for the dentist to do work on your teeth for free. Don't worry (but get that work done soon while you still know you can have it done)!

    Be cautious of your eating during this stressful time. I know that when I get busy I kind of leave mindfulness behind. I just posted about a sodium blow up this last week, with finals and fights with the husband I kind of blanked on what I was putting into my mouth.

  2. I'm not worried about finding another job, I just don't want to have to switch dentists. I am scared to death of dentists. The fact that Dr. M can get me into the chair in the first place, and that he can work on me without me passing out from fear is quite an accomplishment. So even if I DID work for another dentist, I'd not go to him for work probably. Scared stiff I would be. It took almost 4 months of daily coaxing and a toothache to get me into the chair in the first place lol.

    It's just change. Change scares me, because it's hard telling what would happen. It scared me to move to Texas away from all of my family except one aunt for the first job that took me away from my family. It scared me to make the huge jump to go from Texas to NM where I knew no one in order to start up this relationship I have with D.

    But I trust him, and I know he'll take care of everything should we decide to move and I have a tough time getting a job or want to take a little time off or whatever.

    We'll see. :)