Victory!

No, I haven't lost any more weight (though I did gain some and lose some again, see below), but I did have a huge huge non-scale victory this past week. I mentioned before that I was going to be flying to Illinois to pick my mom and the kids and her Uhaul up and drive them all cross country to Apache Junction, AZ so they could move there. I was really kind of apprehensive about the flying because I hate, detest and otherwise loathe flying as a large woman. Well, since I really hadn't lost much weight since my last weigh in (I've been hovering around 260 give or take a pound or two), I asked for a seatbelt extender as I got on. I had the seat next to the window and D had the middle seat and some lady who was the mom to the really really annoying child in seat directly behind me that kept kicking my chair and hitting his window with the empty water bottle he had. Well I sat down and tried to put my seatbelt on and IT FIT. Sure I had to have it as large as possible to make it fit, but it fit, and fit comfortably at that spot. I probably could've made it smaller but m'eh.

Then on the ride, we spent so much time in the truck, and I managed to go the whole way without feeling like I was taking up a ton of room in the truck, or squishing my cousin (accidently there were a couple of times when we squished her between us in playing).

Now, the road trip was a disaster diet wise. I gained about 5 pounds (was at 265 Monday). But today I'm back down to 261 from eating right again. Now I just need to start drinking more water. :) I still struggle with the 4 water bottles a day. Not because I'm drinking other things just I don't have enough time in the day! lol.

Anyway so I gotta end it here, gots me some work to do, just thought I'd do an update :)

Amber

Been busy!

No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I've just been incredibly busy. Between work and school and social stuff I've just not really had much to talk about in here. I'm still trying to stick to my guns, and I'm having to knock of some stuff I thought I put behind me. I'm getting sick of water. Even if I put in like crystal light or something I'm just getting tired of water water water and nothing else. I don't like tea or coffee, bleh. I need to reevaluate where I'm at.

But beyond that I just need to start eating more fruit and veggies and less BS stuff that my body don't need, and start working out more. I know what I NEED to do, it's just getting my rebellious lazy ass to start doing it. Sounds easy but it's not.

Only a couple more weeks until I go to Illinois, I'm extremly excited. I miss my mom a lot and I get to see all my family again. I'm not used to being completely family-less. I grew up where my mother's ENTIRE side of the family lived in a 20 mile radius and she had 5 siblings and even THEIR kids pretty much all lived within a 30 minute drive. I'm the one oddball that moved far away. lol.

Anyway so that's about it for an update on my end.

Amber

Going home....again

So, before I started this blog journey in January, I went home to Illinois for a funeral. My grandfather passed away the morning after Thanksgiving (so black friday had a double meeting in my family this past year), so my fat ass got woke up at 5am after a 2am nighter with some friends of mine to be told the news and to be told I needed to get said fat ass to Illinois pronto. So I did. I booked the next flight out of Albuqerque (at 6am the next morning mind you, my said friends I'd pulled the 2amer with weren't happy that I made them get up at 4:30 to drive my ass to the airport lol). I think it was then that I said FUCK IT I'M DONE! with being fat. I think it started gnawing on me then that I needed to lose weight, I just chose to not take action until January 9th. I had to get seatbelt extenders, on the flights, and the last flight that landed me home in ABQ I had to sit in a seat much to small for me and was completely uncomfortable despite the complete and utter lack of people on the plane.

So now I'm flying home again, albeit for better reasons. My mom is moving to Arizona and lucky me, my boyfriend and I get to drive her and the Uhaul. Honestly I'm actually looking forward to it, I"ll get to ride with D in the cab for most of it, and with my mom in the carwhen she needs a break from driving. I get the most information and fun out of D when he's driving because he's not focused on playing a video game for once :P But I digress. This said trip to Illinois involves every fat person's favorite time....a flight. So I'm hoping (I have 3 weeks) to lose a few pounds between now and then, and to see if I can manage to get through the flight without a belt extender. That would be heavenly. I hate having to ask for one. I really do. So maybe this trip looming ahead will get me out of the funk I've been in and get me into losing weight again since I'll want to impress all my family when I go back home, and be able to fit into some nice tank tops for the ride. I bought two and they fit but they're just a tad snug, tighter than I like to wear my shirts kthxbai!

As I posted earlier, I've stocked my kitchen with good for me stuff. I've been sticking to lean meats again, I'm going to be on a mission to make a food list and dinner menu for next week and buy and cook healthy good for me dinners again, and I need to figure out a good for me lunch. I bought some turkey lunch meat and had a sandwich for lunch with grapes today but it sure didn't seem to fill me up. So that's something to look at. But I left it at that. :)

Anyway so that's today's news reel. See ya back ... possibly tomorrow!

Amber

Nose back to the grindstone

So. I posted earlier that I needed to get my head out of my ass and get serious about this losing weight goal of mine. I've gotten lax in the last couple of weeks as stress from school and laziness on the weekends became more and more common.

I was going to post a picture but my camera is being stupid. So I can't. But I was going to post a picture of my fridge. It's got several 1/2 cup sized containers that are full of fresh red grapes, a few canned fruit 1 cup cans (I like my fruit cold), and all sorts of things like that all lined up nice and neat on the top shelf. This will help me be able to quickly grab what I need, and keep D out of my shit (he loves to eat my stuff I need like Salsa and what not that I use to make lunches taste better). TOP SHELF IS OFF LIMITS TO PEOPLE WHO DONT WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT! lol.

Anyway, so that's that. I'm off!

Amber

Woo!

Yeah, so not doing well on the WL front, basically I've been lazy and I'll admit it, we've been eating out more than eating in (bad me!). Mostly because I've just been too lazy and tired to go to the store and get food and make food and do dishes and clean up and etc etc etc.

Well no more!

Putting my foot down again, I've gained enough back (I'm at 262 atm) and I'm just not going there anymore. I'm going to be honest because if I'm not honest and pretend like everything is fine nothing will change and I'll gain all of it back and be miserable again.

But, I got my dishwasher on Saturday and it makes my life so much easier. I was able to make dinner yesterday and put the dishes in the dishwasher and wash a couple days worth of dishes and put them away and not have to devote all evening to it. It's a pain in the ass in a way because I have to have D get between the fridge and the dishwasher and run the dishes because I'm too big (the handle of the fridge gets in the way), but at least they get done. So now with that I should have NO excuse to not cook dinner at home considering I will always have clean dishes! That's usually what stops me from doing dinner in the first place. Who wants to wash their dishes just to cook? lol.

Anyway enough excuses. I got paid today. I totally fucked up my checking account over the Memorial Day weekend. I didn't realize I accidently charged the two plane tickets my mom wanted to my account instead of hers....700 dollars gone out of my account. Thankfully my mom will send me a check tomorrow when she gets home. I need food in my house yo! I hate being so low on money....I'm way way under my little 1k bubble that I can dip into if necessary, I think I have about 300 left >.< Stupid accidental charges.

So I accomplished a lot this weekend. I lost 3 pounds (I was at 265 at the start of last week which frustrated me), I cleaned my house everywhere except the bedroom (hard to clean when your boyfriend is sleeping in there right?) and I managed to work on some other minor projects i've been wanting to get done but just haven't had the time nor gumption to get it done. So I'm proud of myself. We also ate at home all weekend which is a first in a while. Now tonight I just need to go to the store and get some basic food supplies to last me a couple of days and put my check in the bank. Homework galore to do too. Gonna be a busy night!

Amber

A long weekend.

You would think that a long weekend would mean more R&R for me....NOT! >.< I did get a little rest done on Friday. I worked on Friday for a little over an hour on some charting stuff that needed to get done, and then went home and basically relaxed. I really can't remember a lot of what I did Friday except that I did use my new EA Active. Saturday I got D to help me bring up the coffee table that Ken and Robin gave us a few weeks ago (shows you how often I use my back seat right?) so that I could have an empty car when I went to Albuquerque. I loaded my car with my laundry and off to Albuquerque I went with the intent of coming home Sunday.

Didn't happen.

I spent most of the afternoon Saturday with Ken and Robin and family at Chili's and doing some running around and such, setting Ken's computer back up so I could try a beta copy of Sims 3 (kinda neat) and then helping Robin pack a few things. Then on Sunday we went to Mike's house (another friend that lives in the area) for lunch (nachos, home made, not too bad I guess I tried to make my toppings be more of the veggies than the meat and cheese...) and were there from about 1pm till 9 or 10pm, drove back to Ken's house and I crashed there because my laundry wasn't done yet and so I couldn't just leave it there lol. Then Monday I helped them move a piano from inside the house to the garage so we could get some other stuff out (where it was positioned it basically blocked any large pieces from being moved from the bedrooms). Then I helped them clean out their garage of all the big stuff they were going to throw out and haul it to the dumpster they had delivered. Spent most of the day doing that until about 1 or 2pm then I decided it was best I be getting home considering I had a homework assignment to get done. Got home, did my homework, hauled some stuff upstairs from my car, think I fell asleep about midnight and got up this morning at 6:30.

Such a long long weekend and yet I got next to nothing I wanted to get accomplished done. :(

But, on the plus and very exciting side...I have a dishwasher! /cheer! Ken and Robin have one of those stand alone dish washers you can move around on wheels and I bought it off of them (since they won't need it) it's brand new. I hate doing dishes, especially in this apartment because there's only one sink so it's a pain to do the dishes. So I'm extremly excited to not have to do most of my dishes and it will make my life so much easier. I work long hours and after dinner I just don't feel like washing a load of dishes, so I'll rinse them off and they'll sit stacked in the sink for a day or two until I finally run out of dishes to use or something lol. It's awful I know but I'm just so tired after work and I have so much to do!

So this'll help. lol

Anyway back to work!

Amber

EA Active

So, I forgot that I had preordered this "game" and it showed up on my doorstep this afternoon (well not forgot, but didn't realize it was on its way to being out for purchase. I popped it in tonight (just a little bit ago, yes I'm up late/early I know) and let me just say I'm pretty darn happy with it.

I've had the wii fit for a few months, and it's great and all (I enjoy the boxing) but my main complaint about it was that I had to stop inbetween each activity to select another, or to continue on with what I was doing (like more reps or something). So there was a lot of downtime because the trainer had to talk and there was no way to skip through it. So while I may have "worked out" for an hour, it was probably only 20 mins worth or 30 mins worth when it was all said and done.

With this one there's a 30 day challenge, it keeps track of how long you go, how many calories you burn (!) and it's continous. I may have to stop to pick up the bands, or put the nunchuck into the little holder on my leg, but that's about it. It gives you plenty of time to do it (stops between each activity) but it has a skip forward button to skip past tutorials so you can get started as soon as you have the equipment picked up.

My only real "complaint" is that because of how short I am (5'0) it sometimes doesn't pick up that my legs are bending for squats because the nunchuck won't quite go parallel enough. I was practically sitting on my heels doin' squats (could be a better workout anyway right? lol). And running is a bitch and it doesn't quite recognize that I'm running either. Something to work on I suppose. nice thing is the time on the running countdown continues irregardless so I don't have to struggle to get around the track if I'm not getting it to work right (for now until I figure it out).

All in all I'm happy with it, it had me sweating even on "low intensity" work outs. Though I wish I could preprogram my "days off" for the challenge because it'd be nice to have a "day off" tomorrow since I won't be home until late (going to Albuquerque). We shall see how it goes.

You can also use the wii board if you have it, or not if you don't. The Wii board just enhances some of the activities I guess. I'd recommend it for anyone who hates going to the gym (as I do right now due to my size) and/or wants to work out in the comfort of their home. It also comes with resistance bands, which is nice for arm curls and such. :)

Amber