Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Been busy!

No, I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I've just been incredibly busy. Between work and school and social stuff I've just not really had much to talk about in here. I'm still trying to stick to my guns, and I'm having to knock of some stuff I thought I put behind me. I'm getting sick of water. Even if I put in like crystal light or something I'm just getting tired of water water water and nothing else. I don't like tea or coffee, bleh. I need to reevaluate where I'm at.

But beyond that I just need to start eating more fruit and veggies and less BS stuff that my body don't need, and start working out more. I know what I NEED to do, it's just getting my rebellious lazy ass to start doing it. Sounds easy but it's not.

Only a couple more weeks until I go to Illinois, I'm extremly excited. I miss my mom a lot and I get to see all my family again. I'm not used to being completely family-less. I grew up where my mother's ENTIRE side of the family lived in a 20 mile radius and she had 5 siblings and even THEIR kids pretty much all lived within a 30 minute drive. I'm the one oddball that moved far away. lol.

Anyway so that's about it for an update on my end.


Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Going home....again

So, before I started this blog journey in January, I went home to Illinois for a funeral. My grandfather passed away the morning after Thanksgiving (so black friday had a double meeting in my family this past year), so my fat ass got woke up at 5am after a 2am nighter with some friends of mine to be told the news and to be told I needed to get said fat ass to Illinois pronto. So I did. I booked the next flight out of Albuqerque (at 6am the next morning mind you, my said friends I'd pulled the 2amer with weren't happy that I made them get up at 4:30 to drive my ass to the airport lol). I think it was then that I said FUCK IT I'M DONE! with being fat. I think it started gnawing on me then that I needed to lose weight, I just chose to not take action until January 9th. I had to get seatbelt extenders, on the flights, and the last flight that landed me home in ABQ I had to sit in a seat much to small for me and was completely uncomfortable despite the complete and utter lack of people on the plane.

So now I'm flying home again, albeit for better reasons. My mom is moving to Arizona and lucky me, my boyfriend and I get to drive her and the Uhaul. Honestly I'm actually looking forward to it, I"ll get to ride with D in the cab for most of it, and with my mom in the carwhen she needs a break from driving. I get the most information and fun out of D when he's driving because he's not focused on playing a video game for once :P But I digress. This said trip to Illinois involves every fat person's favorite time....a flight. So I'm hoping (I have 3 weeks) to lose a few pounds between now and then, and to see if I can manage to get through the flight without a belt extender. That would be heavenly. I hate having to ask for one. I really do. So maybe this trip looming ahead will get me out of the funk I've been in and get me into losing weight again since I'll want to impress all my family when I go back home, and be able to fit into some nice tank tops for the ride. I bought two and they fit but they're just a tad snug, tighter than I like to wear my shirts kthxbai!

As I posted earlier, I've stocked my kitchen with good for me stuff. I've been sticking to lean meats again, I'm going to be on a mission to make a food list and dinner menu for next week and buy and cook healthy good for me dinners again, and I need to figure out a good for me lunch. I bought some turkey lunch meat and had a sandwich for lunch with grapes today but it sure didn't seem to fill me up. So that's something to look at. But I left it at that. :)

Anyway so that's today's news reel. See ya back ... possibly tomorrow!


Monday, June 1, 2009

Nose back to the grindstone

So. I posted earlier that I needed to get my head out of my ass and get serious about this losing weight goal of mine. I've gotten lax in the last couple of weeks as stress from school and laziness on the weekends became more and more common.

I was going to post a picture but my camera is being stupid. So I can't. But I was going to post a picture of my fridge. It's got several 1/2 cup sized containers that are full of fresh red grapes, a few canned fruit 1 cup cans (I like my fruit cold), and all sorts of things like that all lined up nice and neat on the top shelf. This will help me be able to quickly grab what I need, and keep D out of my shit (he loves to eat my stuff I need like Salsa and what not that I use to make lunches taste better). TOP SHELF IS OFF LIMITS TO PEOPLE WHO DONT WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT! lol.

Anyway, so that's that. I'm off!



Yeah, so not doing well on the WL front, basically I've been lazy and I'll admit it, we've been eating out more than eating in (bad me!). Mostly because I've just been too lazy and tired to go to the store and get food and make food and do dishes and clean up and etc etc etc.

Well no more!

Putting my foot down again, I've gained enough back (I'm at 262 atm) and I'm just not going there anymore. I'm going to be honest because if I'm not honest and pretend like everything is fine nothing will change and I'll gain all of it back and be miserable again.

But, I got my dishwasher on Saturday and it makes my life so much easier. I was able to make dinner yesterday and put the dishes in the dishwasher and wash a couple days worth of dishes and put them away and not have to devote all evening to it. It's a pain in the ass in a way because I have to have D get between the fridge and the dishwasher and run the dishes because I'm too big (the handle of the fridge gets in the way), but at least they get done. So now with that I should have NO excuse to not cook dinner at home considering I will always have clean dishes! That's usually what stops me from doing dinner in the first place. Who wants to wash their dishes just to cook? lol.

Anyway enough excuses. I got paid today. I totally fucked up my checking account over the Memorial Day weekend. I didn't realize I accidently charged the two plane tickets my mom wanted to my account instead of hers....700 dollars gone out of my account. Thankfully my mom will send me a check tomorrow when she gets home. I need food in my house yo! I hate being so low on money....I'm way way under my little 1k bubble that I can dip into if necessary, I think I have about 300 left >.< Stupid accidental charges.

So I accomplished a lot this weekend. I lost 3 pounds (I was at 265 at the start of last week which frustrated me), I cleaned my house everywhere except the bedroom (hard to clean when your boyfriend is sleeping in there right?) and I managed to work on some other minor projects i've been wanting to get done but just haven't had the time nor gumption to get it done. So I'm proud of myself. We also ate at home all weekend which is a first in a while. Now tonight I just need to go to the store and get some basic food supplies to last me a couple of days and put my check in the bank. Homework galore to do too. Gonna be a busy night!