Done!

No, not with weight loss, but the rocks!  IF I HAVE TO MOVE ROCKS AGAIN IT'LL BE ALL TOO SOON!  lol.  I'm officially in the 260's.  I've maintained under 270 for 3 days straight and still losing because of all the rock moving.  I'm at 269.2 this morning.  I was at 269.8 for a couple days and then today it dropped again.

So I'm sore, tired, and it's only 9:30 and I'm ready for bed.  rofl.

Until next time!

Is it possible?

Man.  I'm sore.  Not just sore, I'm SORE.  We're about halfway done with the gravel.  Sure, I cleared a lot yesterday, but today was really finishing the area I'd partially cleared the night before to move away gravel that I couldn't pick up with a shovel alone.

I saw a peek at the scale this morning, only barely cuz I had a hard time looking over my flab to see the scale cuz of how sore I was and it said 269.   horray!  Now to not have it go back up dammit would be nice lol.

So lots of more work out there done today.  We pulled apart the trampoline that's blocking the other half of the area we have to clear in order to be able to clear that area of gravel.  Got the pool and got it to our place, it's in the garage.  But it got extremly hot really quickly today.  Yes, I realize, summer, Phoenix area, hot!  But it was too hot to work out there, at least for me, by like 8:30am.  lol.  I'm a pansy ass.  Oh well, D's going to finish up the gravel tomorrow, or so he says :P  He wants me to do nothing but provide moral support.  I'm sure he can see how badly I'm hobbling around, I spent more time in bed today watching tv than I think I have in almost 6 months.  Last time I watched this much tv I was laid up with a sciatic nerve episode.  >.>

So I'm off to bed.  Sleep's been sporadic.  Yesterday after I worked on the yard for a while I thought I'd go to bed because I was really tired, but as soon as I laid down I couldn't really sleep, was too tired, or too sore or too something and couldn't sleep.  I didn't fall asleep until about 2am and got back up at 4.  Oh joy.  I took a short nap this morning but that's about it, so I'm going to go to bed now.  :)

Until next time! 

Does this count?

Does clearing gravel (think old school yard type gravel) from a 25 by 25 foot area in 90+ degree heat count as heavy exercise?  rofl.  This pool better be worth it.  >.<

I've been clearing gravel all day, I got up at 7am, worked on it for about 3 hours, did some running around, went back out about 6pm and started back up again and it's now 8pm and I'm taking a much needed break.  Summer reminds you of just how shitty being fat really is let me tell you.  Hopefully this pool will help me change that.  Mom's been wanting one for a while so we offered to get it set up before she gets home.  I plan on using it to lose weight, the kids, of course, to play in and mom to lounge in.  To each their own right?  :)

But I just wonder, is it heavy exercise, moderate?  lol.  I want to be accurate in my fit day you see...

Until next time, provided I don't fall over from exaustion....

Hiiiiii there!

Been a while eh?  Been busy.  New job kicking my ass and it's not even one I want to be at.  Weight loss?  Not happening, BUT I AM MAINTAINING!  Don't see how, I barely eat all freaking day, I get home and I control my eating, but at least I'm not gaining, so I guess I'll take it.  I'm between 270 and 271 pretty much steadily, usually more on the 270 side. 

Yes, I'm eating enough calories, or at least I think I am.  I eat some sort of oatmeal or bran cereal in the morning before work.  I drive an hour to an hour and a half to work (for an 11 dollar an hour job ... /sigh), and then I get to work about 9am.  I don't eat anything at work until lunch time, no munching nothing.  I eat usually some sort of good for me food.  I take leftovers from the night before such as spaghetti, left over home made teriyaki chicken with lots of veggies, lately it's been so hot here (pushing 115) I've been taking cottage cheese, yogurt, cheese stick for a snack if I do get famished, or once in a while half a sandwich if even that.  I drink lots of water (talking all day dries you out), and when I get home I eat some sort of dinner made from scratch at home at least 4 out of 5 work days a week.  Weekends I'm right on par with what my eating should be.

I dunno what I'm doing wrong.  About the only thing I'm NOT doing is exercising.  I'm just too tired.  I leave the house about 7:30 and I get home anytime between 6:30 and 7pm.  After I get home it's make dinner, bath time and then I'm just pooped.  I usually fall asleep about 9pm and get back up to do it all again.

Any ideas?  I'm fresh plum out of 'em....

The scale....it mocks me.

Title says it all today folks.  What am I doing up at 4am?  Well, I didn't sleep overnight the night before.  I was up from 6am on 6/17 until 5pm 6/18.  Dunno why, wasn't tired.  So of course at 1pm I start getting tired, I lay down and I'm almost asleep and what happens?  The phone rings, and poof I'm up another 4 hours ugh.  My mind finally gave up the "I don't wanna go to bed!" fight about 5pm and I slept until 4 this morning which is no biggie.

I ate all my calories yesterday.  I refrained from snacking overnight,  and I came in at around 1650 before going to bed at 5pm which I knew I wasn't going to be up until late in the evening so I worked hard to get in all my calories before bed so that I wouldn't have a day of like 1k calories or something equally stupid. 

So I get up this morning, do my thing, hop on the scale and....

270.0

Yes, that's weight loss, .6 pounds for this week which means I've lost exactly 7 pounds since I started.  That's not the part that mocks me.  I'm happy I'm down and not up, not as happy that it's not more than .6 but I think my body is just evening out from the massive 6.4 pounds I lost last week, so it's kind of like losing 3.5 pounds both weeks. 

No what the mocking part is the fact that it couldn't be 269.9.  No that'd be too easy!  lol.

I start a new job Monday.  It's only seasonal, it pays crap and there's a bit of a commute and I don't really have much control over my hours it sounds like but it keeps me from having to use more of my savings and I can build some of it back up before the job ends but such is life.  So I'm going to have to figure out some good lunches and a good exercise schedule.  I always do really well losing weight when I have plenty of time to do my thing and then seem to falter when I go back to work.  Here's to hoping that doesn't happen again.

So I'm off to eat my breakfast and do a little working out and then it's off to get a new pair or two of pants and a couple of pairs of nice shoes I can wear to work before Monday.  My goal for this coming week is 269.9 dammit!  lol

Until next time.

Does not compute!

Ok so out of curiosity I stepped on the scale today.  Hadn't been on it since Sunday when I weighed in at 270.6.  I've been totally on for my eating, and have really tried to incorporate more veggies and fruits in to my diet! Since Sunday have worked out on the treadmill 3 times.  First time was 45 minutes of walking, second time was 30 minutes of walking and 3 minutes of jogging.  Last night I pushed myself pretty hard and had 30 minutes of walking and 10 minutes of jogging, 5 minutes was jogging straight, then I got really tired but I wanted to keep jogging so I would do 1 minute of jogging followed by 2 minutes of walking at a slight slower pace and rinse and repeat.  I was sweating pretty good after that workout.  Was tough but I'm not going to lose weight by just fucking around on the treadmill not really working out right? 

Anyway, so the point of this post...

How does upping my working out frequency AND intensity equal losing piddly on the scale?!  >.> 

Only down .2.  That's right POINT TWO

/sigh 

Oh well, onto the treadmill again today after I get home from the store.

Until next time.

Some observations

Have you ever noticed how HARD starting a "diet" or "lifestyle" change is?  Our minds rebel! 

But that looks so good...
But one nibble can't hurt...
I can always do better tomorrow...

Our stomach growls at the mention of a cookie, a piece of cake, that favorite fast food or restraunt item...It says "HEY FEED ME YOU NUB!!" constantly when we eat "normal portions".

But have you noticed that after a week or two, our bodies stop rebelling?  It adjusts to the new "normal size" amount of food we're going to put in our stomachs?  It's ok with us working out (though sometimes it still rebels when you find new muscles you didn't know you had". 

I've been doing this seriously, as in this is it Amber you're done being fat for one week, 3 days, and some 14 hours give or take.  Not much you say, right?  To me, that's a huge amount of time.  I'm one of those do it for a day and something goes wrong so I quit for 4 months kinda person when it comes to weight loss.  Getting back on the "bandwagon" is difficult for me.  This is evident in my stopping last year.  Granted, I did well for the few months I did it, lost like 20 pounds, but got upset and frustrated when I hit that first plateau I guess you can call it.  Wasn't really, I was still losing but I wasn't losing very fast and I think I just said fuck it to be frank.  So what makes this attempt different from that attempt?  My cooking.

If you'd told me two years ago I'd be losing weight by eating less and whatever I wanted, I'd have laughed at you and said you're on crack.  I don't tell myself "NO YOU CANT HAVE THAT ITS FORBIDDEN FOOOOOOD!"  But rather I indulge, and enjoy and savor the food and then move on.  Let me give you an example.  D sent me out to get him some lunch.  Well sent me out is a strong way of saying he was hungry and I was going out anyway so I picked him up some lunch from KFC at his request.  KFC, ironically is my FAVORITE fast food.  I grew up on that shit.  I'd eat that chicken every damn day if you let me and it was good for me.  Anyway.  So I was hungry by the time I got done running around getting stuff and pulled into the KFC.  I wanted KFC.  I CRAVED KFC!  So what did I have?  KFC! 

Now wait wait, before you blow your gasket and tell me how bad that food is and how I completely blew my diet, let me finish :)

I got the meal for the boyfriend and one extra strip added to his meal and his sides I got the one he wanted and a side of mashed potatoes (no gravy!) for me.  That's right, you heard me I had one chicken piece and one individual side of mashed.  My craving was satisfied for a mere 250 calories and about 8g of fat and I added some fruit when I got home and some steamed broccoli to make it a full lunch.  I can enjoy what I want within reason!  I am able and do make choices in my life that positively or negatively affect me.  Showing restraint in this sort of situation has built my confidence; however, not getting anything at all from KFC would have bogged my mind down as it complained about how badly it wanted to nibble some KFC!  I also made sure the boyfriend knew not to leave left overs, or to throw them away and not save them for later if he was going to have left overs.  No need for temptation right? 

I digress though.  I was going to talk about my cooking.  I am currently, as I type this post, munching on my dinner.  What's for dinner you ask?  Chicken Fried Rice.  Home made, and not really fried honestly.  I about 3/4 a pound (two chicken breasts) of chicken cut up pretty small and sauteed mushrooms and minced garlic with it in 1 tbsp of olive oil then added 2/3 (one full serving according to the bag) of frozen peas and 3 oz (1 serving according to the bag) of pre-shredded carrots and about 1/4 cup of green onions cut up to the mix and sauteed that all together for a little bit, then when the rice got done mixed it all in, added a smidge of soy sauce (I really need to get the lower sodium kind though, I will next bottle I buy) and walla!  Chinese food!  I then weighed (ON MY NEW SCALE /NOD NOD) how much the entire batch weighed and then weighed (AGAIN!) about 1/4 of that and that's my dinner.  My own customized chinese food without the frying it and it isn't half bad!  Though...I think it needs a little more seasoning next time, maybe I'll add a little more garlic, something to mess with I suppose :)

THAT my friends is why this go around is different.  Last time I spent a lot of time searching the grocery store for those perfect easy to make no fuss meals that were "good for me".  Ha!  They really don't exist.  They're chauk full of salt my friends!  I'm not like "OMG SALT NOT IN MY DIET" but I don't want an overabundance.  So I make my own food.  And yes, soy sauce does have salt, but I try to limit it, best I can :) 

Have you ever noticed when you're being "good" on your diet you stick to the outer edges of the grocery store or within the frozen veggies section/bread aisle for "your food"? 

I noticed it last night.  Granted I walked down every damn aisle looking for an ingredient that still eludes me, but that's a story for another post.  I went to Walmart last night in search of food for some recepies I saw online and also for my rice.  First place I stopped, the fresh food section.  Got the shredded carrots, the green onion, some fruit, some bananas (my new best friend!) and moved on to the frozen foods section where I picked up my peas and some premixed bags of stir fry veggies that are frozen that I can use when busy or don't feel like cooking but want to throw together some stir fry.  They come with prepackaged sauce but I doubt I'll use it.  Anyway...then I hit the meat section and got a TON of chicken on sale (I got 12 pounds of chicken for ~18 bucks) which I split into two breasts per ziplock bag and put them all in the freezer except the one pack I used today.  And then got a little red meat because I want to make some beef and broccoli and such in the next week or so, and then I perused down the outer aisle as I picked up cheese, yogurt, eggs, milk and some 100% orange juice.  The only "inner aisle" I hit was the soda aisle for my fix (I drink 2 per day now wut!) and the cereal aisle for some prepackaged instant oatmeal.  The rest of the "inner aisle" shopping I did was for the boyfriend and his snack needs.  As much as I'd love for him to lose weight with me, it's not his priority and me harping on him will do no good.  So until he's ready, I can only support him not gaining as much weight as trying to cook as good of meals as possible.  :) 

So that's what I'm doing.  Cooking at home more, making better for me with much more veggies in it meals, and trying to have some sort of portion control going on.  It's kind of stressful, in a way.  Especially if you have a home made recipe such as spaghetti and you're trying to figure out just how many calories DOES this little amount I have on my plate have in it?  But I found that if I figure out all the calories individually as best I can and then add it all together, figure out how much the whole shabang weighs and figure out how many servings I think it should be and split it up that way I come out at least a little better off.  And it gets easier over time.

I'm not really hungry or constantly thinking of food like I was the first few days.  I don't care what anyone says, going from eating like 2500 to 3k worth of calories down to 1600 to 1800 calories makes your stomach go WTF!  I'm exercising more.  I'm actually having difficulty eating my full 1600 calories (GASP).  But you know what, I'm satisfied after meals, I'm sleeping better when my knee and elbow isn't bothering me and overall I am getting into better shape and losing weight.

Here's to continued success!

Until next time.